there is no independence here.

Wow, I’m bored enough that I am gonna sit down and blog about anything that comes to mind. Yeah, I don’t blog when I’m bored. In fact, I’m usually not bored sitting on the computer. I guess I’m usually working on some project that I think is so ground-breaking that I will never become bored again… wrong. Oh well, let’s see what we can dig up from my brain.

Spring break is looking pretty promising. I can’t wait… it all starts Friday night. Me and Josh prolly gonna hang Saturday or something… well, we’ll prolly hang ALL WEEK. I still need to meet his girlfriend, though (I know you’re reading this Josh, take a hint). Man, I am determined to have the best spring break EVER next week. I will most definitely go swimming, airsofting, and maybe even movie-ing at least once next week. Even if I have to spend all my money next week, I WILL have the best spring break EVER.

So as for right now, I’ve been sitting around doing not much most of the week. Monday after school I spend like SIX HOURS completely redesigning my webpage (take a look sometime). I’m really impressed with the outcome, too. Yesterday I did nothing—again, except I added a few things to my webpage… so yeah, it’s mostly been “time-wasting week” for me.

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Remember my blog about God being inescapable? Well, I still wasn’t doing well until this morning when I [finally] sat down to read something in the Bible. I guess I tend to learn the same lessons over and over—can’t be living right if I’m not reading scripture. I don’t know how I ever get myself convinced otherwise. It’s really depressing.

You know what’s even more depressing? Sinning when you KNOW God’s watching you. Yes, yes, God’s ALWAYS watching and we know that. But it’s like when you’re gonna sin and you think something like “Well, this is gonna surrender ground to the enemy”, and you sin anyways. It’s like going “OK, what the heck” and pulling the trigger on a gun pointed at your brain.

OK, well such has been the case once with me this week, and I guess it’s kinda haunting me and everything. Well, when I sat down this morning to read, I decided I’d open up to Romans, recalling the verse that says something along the lines of “So shall we sin so that grace may abound? By no means!” Well, I read Romans 1, 2, and 3 (BY THE GRACE OF GOD!). Set me pretty much straight. It was like someone chewing me out for slacking off.

You know, it’s when you sit back and say to yourself “I’m OK now, I’ll make it on my own” that you know you’re falling back and YOU’RE WRONG. I guess I keep having to learn over and over that I can’t do anything without Christ, so I might as well give up.