i can run but i can't hide.

Woe be unto me! I have tried to escape the inescapable—my savior. What I have done is now clear and I understand how feeble it is try to run and hide from Christ… How’s that for sounding like something Jonah may have wrote? Boy O boy do I feel like the guy.

GOD IS INESCAPABLE! Here’s my experience. I get into some kind of secret sin, be it jealousy, anger, lust, or something like this, and whenever I sit down and talk to someone or whenever I sit down to think there’s some kinda scripture hurled at me. Everyone’s faith complements each other. If you’re surrounded (or if you surround yourself) by people of faith you CAN NOT ESCAPE HIM.

Makes me get discouraged about sinning and encouraged to follow Him. All I’m doing is wasting time on myself when He’s right there waiting for me to work for Him, and He’s sitting up there reminding me through anything possible that I am doing wrong. I can’t sin and claim Christ, it’s an oxymoron. It doesn’t fit.

Might as well quit trying to hide sin from God, right? He sees it. It’s almost like He toys with me about it, too. It’s like guilt, but it’s not guilt. Guilt is negative—this is “positive guilt”. It’s like a soft reprimand—a “hey, just cut it out, man. I already know what you’re hiding”. Cause he knows I’m His royalty and I know better. He knows I know he has greater rewards in heaven than anything I may gain on earth—Heck, he TAUGHT ME. He taught me the hard way last weekend.

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I had a good time having Josh over. We basically goofed around most of last night. We messing around on our computers and stuff then we watched Walk the Line (which I didn’t really enjoy as much the second time). But then sobered up a little and talked after the movie about what’s going on… but, sleep-hungry, we retired after not too long.

But this morning we probably walked three or four miles talking about all kinds of stuff, and that’s what I probably enjoyed the most. We were mostly just catching up because I haven’t seen him in like three weeks and we don’t really have deep conversations on the phone. I made sure he told me all about Min, though.

So I’m still just me. I took a little bit out of the conversation we had this morning and there’s definitely some things I’m gonna start workin toward. I’ve got some plans in mind that may help my situation and that of some others. Yes, it’s undisclosed for now, but it’ll surface if it works out. Right now I’m unsure.

I hope this blog may find you all well.