thinkin again.

Well some [unmentionable] stuff hit me kinda hard today and I think it set me to thinkin’ again. Chris also made a comment to me in literature class along the lines of “you’ve changed, you’re not the same”. So it was the chain reaction of what happened this morning plus what Chris said to me that’s got me to thinkin’ about my life again.

I can honestly admit that for a while there (I don’t know why either) I didn’t really care which way my life was headed. It’s been a hard last couple of weeks for me, and I’ve been pretty much quitting at nearly everything. The whole thing with the Christians at school made me quit talking about my faith… and lots of stuff followed. Well I'm trying to find a way to get back to that. And, oh my gosh, it looks pretty much impossible from here. Heck, I almost turned into a nihilistic goth-type (which is pretty scary for me).

Well, too bad we don’t have bible study this week because I look forward to bible study when I reach these little “epiphany things”. Oh well, at least I’ve got friends to talk it all over with and stuff.

Yeah, I know, short post, but my idea is so that I put something up everyday. I’m do something to one of my pages now.