sitting down.

Well, it’s been a good last couple of (two or so) weeks. I’ve been able to find a way to (figuratively) sit my life down. I’m like barely “living” anymore. It’s really awesome. Ok, you prolly don’t understand… let me explain.

Sometimes my life really races by. It’s hard when that happens, too. I’m always on my feet about something someone said or something someone did or even something someone is thinking about doing. I’ve been able these past few weeks, since I’ve posted last, to “sit my life down” and stop living. But I needed to do that. My life shouldn’t be all about activity. I think there should be a good balance of peace involved, you know.

So anyways, the physical aspect of this is: I’ve been doing a lot of stuff alone recently. And if I’m not alone, I'm with different people than usual. You'd be surprised at how many adults I’ve been hanging out with recently. I went to the Grounds on Friday night and mostly hung out with/talked to adults the whole time. It’s kinda weird for me to do that.

However, I think a lot of the adults understand me better than the kids I hang out with/talk to, and I think they probably care more (or at least care in a different way, and probably a more founded way… for lack of better terms).

But as you might imagine, this has helped school to be easier and better. I can just kinda walk around and say nothing and do nothing really (except play the awesome card game RPG thing I invented), and I’ve been able to start hanging out with a lot of other kids I didn’t really know (prior) and those I don’t really care whether or not they accept me (particularly freshmen).

Excuse me for well badly-formed sentence structure; I am very guilty of that tonight. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I swear.

So yeah, I went and hung out with “the group” this afternoon, after it’s been like a month probably since I’ve “gone out” and done anything with them. I mean, heck, I see them at school and stuff, but it’s different to take out your whole weekend with them. But yeah, nothing’s changed there. I didn’t really expect anything had. I mean, thing’s have sorta changed, but ultimately things are kinda the same. Face value is the same there, that’s for sure.

Also, Nathan went along with us. I sure hope he had a good time, seemed like he did, but he’s always got a strange perspective, so I’ll hit him up later and see how things went inside his head. However, I wouldn’t be surprised if he feels the same way as most outsiders do about “the group”, he’s kinda like that. I’m glad I’m finding people who think the way I do. It’s good to be able to “sit down” with people.

So yeah… hopefully this week stays the same.