Monday, November 28, 2005

magazine

Well school today was good and boy am I glad… I had this dream in the middle of the night last night that everyone would be all moody and crabby today. Well, half of it ended up true, but then again, Mrs. Henderson is ALWAYS crabby and ALWAYS mad. Oh great, and I have a chemistry quiz tomorrow that I am almost certain I’m gonna fail.

Well, I “explored the separate worlds at school” today (as I had planned). I figured out (basically) how some things are working between everyone at school. However, I don’t really know the details of most. Of course I and everyone else (who knows what I am talking about) have seen the evident split in “the group”. I think it’s a healthy thing, and I’m glad everyone’s not still convinced that they need to try to all stay together and be happy as one group; it caused a lot of fighting and it was difficult to stand at times.

I’m trying to figure out what I should do now… there’s two halves. It reminds of the lyrics to a Pedro the Lion song:

“This line is metaphysical
And on the one side (on the one side)
The good bad half live in wickedness
And on the other side (on the other side)
The good half live in arrogance
And it’s a steep slope
With a short rope
This line is metaphysical
And there’s a steady flow,
Moving to and fro.”

“Oh look, you’ve earned your wings
Are you an angel now? Or a vulture?
Constantly hovering over
Waiting for a big mistake
Oh my God, what have I done?
Oh my God, what have I done?”

“Wouldn’t you love to be
On the cover of a magazine?
Healthy skin, perfect teeth
Designed to hide what lies beneath.
What lies beneath.”

“I feel the darkness growing stronger
As you cram light down my throat.
How does that work out for you
In your holy quest to be above reproach?”

“Wouldn’t you love to be
On the cover of a magazine?
Healthy skin, perfect teeth
Designed to hide what lies beneath.
What lies beneath.”

Now, things at school aren’t exactly like THAT. David Bazaan was probably coming from a MUCH COLDER position when he wrote it. But there IS the basic tug from both ends. Live with people who are true to you, but not necessarily the most moral; OR live with people who lie to you, but are at least doing right. Truth is, lying is immoral, so both sides ARE IMMORAL, but I guess I am just trying to figure out which one would have a better influence on me.

Would I be influence more harmfully in subtle sins or in outright sins? I guess it doesn’t really matter if sin IS sin (reminds me of Noel calling herself a homo this morning… oh my gosh…). I guess I shouldn’t put myself in the presence of sin. But that leaves me with one question? Who do I hang out with at school? NO ONE? Oh well, guess I’ll ask some more people…

Sunday, November 27, 2005

beboing.

ok, well i went and got bebo this weekend... that means i'ma be blogging there because it's more connected w/ all my friends and stuff, I’ll copy all the blogs from there to here.

so anyhow the address is http://noahpippen.bebo.com, see yall there.    

Monday, November 21, 2005

thinkin again.

Well some [unmentionable] stuff hit me kinda hard today and I think it set me to thinkin’ again. Chris also made a comment to me in literature class along the lines of “you’ve changed, you’re not the same”. So it was the chain reaction of what happened this morning plus what Chris said to me that’s got me to thinkin’ about my life again.

I can honestly admit that for a while there (I don’t know why either) I didn’t really care which way my life was headed. It’s been a hard last couple of weeks for me, and I’ve been pretty much quitting at nearly everything. The whole thing with the Christians at school made me quit talking about my faith… and lots of stuff followed. Well I'm trying to find a way to get back to that. And, oh my gosh, it looks pretty much impossible from here. Heck, I almost turned into a nihilistic goth-type (which is pretty scary for me).

Well, too bad we don’t have bible study this week because I look forward to bible study when I reach these little “epiphany things”. Oh well, at least I’ve got friends to talk it all over with and stuff.

Yeah, I know, short post, but my idea is so that I put something up everyday. I’m do something to one of my pages now.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

that's what they all say.


Well I’ve got 15 to write so let’s see what all I can get out…

Well I’m ready to head into another week. I'm really fine with school, it doesn’t bug me like it used to last year while I was home schooled and stuff... maybe it’s the company, but maybe it isn’t. I’ve kinda established a strange identity around the school (in my mind). I don’t know, I guess it’s just real different from what most people would probably expect me to be. I started off the year kinda loud, not drawing a lot of attention to myself (well, not purposely), but just to get everyone loosened up. But then after a while I “quietened-down”. For a few weeks or so I didn’t say too much to anybody, which I think got people to start overlooking me (not that they were all “looking at me” or anything, but I just wanted to be forgotten a little, and it would), which was a good thing. Now I’m kinda half-and-half. I socialize with a lot of kids at school (and it gives me a variety of personalities all day) and I talk more with the teachers. I guess the “quiet spot” that I had a few weeks into this year was a “low spot” of my life or something. Maybe it was more like a “peaceful spot”, because I don’t remember being depressed or anything.

AH, I remember what it was. That was when I was “boycotting people”. Well that didn’t work. And it was a stupid idea. I come up with some pretty stupid ones sometimes, but I have to learn the lessons on my own. It drives me crazy when people tell me I’m wrong when they haven’t thought about it more than 10 seconds or listened to why I feel a certain way or how I got that way or what makes me think I could do something the right way. Sure, there’s a set of rules to most peoples lives that can’t be played around with. For instance, if you jump off a tall building and land on the ground, you’re probably chance of living is probably like 2% or less. This happens because most people die when that happens. But I think some people can choose to live their (own) lives a certain way and be fine, and that’s why it makes me mad when people say stuff like “that’s what the all say”. Might as well say to the person “you’re not even worth listening to, so shut up now.”

Wow, ok that was a weird post. I went from school to anal people. I’ve got 2 minutes left so I’m gonna end it here.

lost maples photographs.


THEY'RE HERE! When I went camping lat weekend I took like 500 pictures. Well, I've got 154 of them online now. Click here to see them.

Enjoy. The place was beautiful.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

musical poetical and photographical.


It’s been a while so I’ll see what all I can cover in the few minutes I have to write tonight…

If there’s any “important” things going on right now that you would benefit from knowing, it would be that I am recording music again. However, some of you probably haven’t heard any of my music. Well you probably soon will cause I always walk around and ask people if they want copies of my stuff when I’m through recording. So yeah, I’ve done four new songs so far. The titles are “Thinking About Living My Life Alone”, “Forget the Hospital I Want to Die on My Front Porch”, “Got My Love but Died Trying”, and “Left You Outside and Froze Like a Popsicle”. The sound of the record reflects one I put out last year called What You Meant By A Definite Yes, which (for you who have never heard it) mostly used piano, guitar, and strings. So yeah, if you liked that one particularly (which many did), you will definitely like this one coming up. The proposed title for the record is My Life is the Stew in the Pot of My Façade. The release date is estimated to mid December to New Year’s Day, but it’ll definitely be done by New Year’s. To visit the record site,
click here. (link goes to http://www.pippenfamily.com/npecrecordings/richardsingerband/new)

On another artistic note, I went camping at a place called Lost Maples State Park (here in Texas) this past weekend. Well, I took around 530 photographs up there because the place was simply breathtaking… no kidding whatsoever, it was amazing there. Those photos will soon be posted online. I will begin sorting through them when I find the free-time and I will probably recolor them and tweak a few. I can make some pretty awesome stuff with these photographs, I know this for sure.

I’ve begun to write poetry again. I have nothing worthy of posting so far, but all my good works will be posted in the “poetry” section of my site. I already have a few (old, terrible) works up there.
Click here to read them, or just go to my page (www.pippenfamily.com/noah) and click “poetry” on the navigation bar. I’m sorry I’m making all these links to all these other pages in this blog. I guess my life is too involved in my pages. But I’ve been trying to get a life recently and I think it’s working. Well, track my blogs and see if I change…